Cecilia's Tale

I'm watching Baby Story on TLC and it has me inspired to recount my pregnancy and the birth of my amazing daughter. Of course, it's such a long tale that it will take more than one entry to complete. Plus, I want ya'll to come back and read more! So, here goes!

December 2012

December brought about a lot of changes for Joe and I. We found out that he got hired to General Motors! Yay! But...the plant is in Wentzville, Missouri and we lived in Flint, Michigan. Boo! Mid-December, Joe started his new job. I hadn't gotten my transfer from work to go through yet so Joe moved to Missouri without me. That was probably one of the worst days of my life. I cried so hard I nearly vomited...but onto a different story.

For a few days after he left, I had weird feelings...and was late getting my period. On December 18th, a Sunday, and also Joe's birthday, I went to church like usual. The church I attended in Michigan is a Metaphysical Church. We have a portion of meditation during service and after we share any messages we may get during meditation. Anyway, before I went to church, I had made plans to stop at the store on the way home and get a pregnancy test, just to assure myself that I wasn't pregnant...just feeling weird. Well, during message time, one of the reverends stood up and said that she had seen me, not to far in the future, holding a swaddled baby. My baby. I stood up and said, "Nah, I'm not pregnant. Joe got a new job and we are moving to Missouri...that's the new life we are getting. Seeing me with a baby is just symbolism." But now I really started to worry.

After church that night, I hung around with Nicky and talked. I shared with her my suspicions and my plan to pick up a test. She made me promise to call her as soon as my test came back, either positive or negative. The whole way home I kept thinking, "what am I going to do if this test is positive?!" Stopped at the store, picked up a two-pack of pregnancy tests, and headed home. As soon as I got home, I took the first test. Surprise! I'm pregnant! Now, you should know this. Joe has never really been sure he wanted kids. He was leaning more towards not wanting them. So now I'm freaking out. Not because I'm pregnant, but because I don't know how I'm going to tell him. And he was 650 miles away and not due to come home until Christmas Eve! Do I wait? Do I call him? I really didn't want to have that conversation over the phone, but didn't want to surprise him with the news right before we went to the family Christmas party!

I called Nicky and shared my news! She was the first to know that I was gonna be a mom. She assured me that things would be alright and told me to call her if I needed anything at all. I debated all night what I was going to do. I resolved that after work the next day, I would call Joe and tell him. Give him some time to think about it before he came home. Work went well. I cheated and told a couple people at work that I was pregnant. Most were surprised!

Monday evening came along. I was increasingly nervous about the phone call I had to make. I settled down on the couch and called Joe. I told him that I needed to tell him something but he needed to promise not to hang up on me or freak out. He promised and I told him that we had got an early Christmas present. He was confused. I said, "We're having a baby?!" He was speechless. I thought he had broken his promise and had hung up on me. "Are you there?" Nothing. "Hello? Are you there?" "How did this happen?!" I tried to break the tension...unsuccessfully. "Well. Sometimes when a man and a woman really love each other..." "This isn't funny!" "I'm sorry...I don't know what to say." Anyway, I won't bore you with the most uncomfortable conversation I've ever had. He assured me that he still loved me, just needed some time to think about things.

I really was nervous that I was going to lose him. We talked a few times throughout the week and he was getting accustomed to the idea of being a dad. We decided that we were going to surprise our family for Christmas with our news. That Saturday was Christmas Eve and Joe would be home when I got home from work early that afternoon. Throughout the week I had gathered supplies to make gifts for our family for the big reveal. Joe's mom, who was the first to know, got an angle ornament that said "My Grandma is an angel" My mom and stepdad got coffee mugs that said "#1 Grandma(pa)" and my dad got a tshirt that said "World's Greatest Grandpa". Joe's mom's reaction was the best!

http://youtu.be/QgnPdzlpbjA

and here's my mom's reaction:

http://youtu.be/4MGMUOB5TRs

go watch them. they will make you smile.

So, now life was on track to change drastically. We were going to be parents. After 6 1/2 years of being together, we were going to welcome a "little us" into the world. I couldn't wait! Just like I know you can't wait until the next part of the story!